Sunday, August 16, 2009
"One Night Stands"
Talking about a sex life can be fun to a certain degree. Being pushed up against a wall, in the shower, on the hood of a car, in bed, with toys you name it you can have it. But how do you know when your passion becomes an addiction? Don't get me wrong I love my toys having my significant other fuck me while having a vibrator on my clit. Amazing! But do toys belong in the life of a Sex Addict? I have been talking to others and learning more about my addiction and as long as you and your partner are happy in bed than you should be able to do what you please! Most sexual addictions start from childhood... mine started because I didn't have a real father (he was married when my mother and him were together and he had six other children!). But not just that I was also molested by my step father at a young age... I really hate talking about that part of my life I am happy I finally got out of that house ! I have turned myself into a victim trying to make up for the past by turning sex into my main goal in life. Meaning to me Sex=love! It should never be this way at all and I am working at bettering myself no more one night stands no more "seeking" out someone better than what I have. The relationship I have with my partner is one to remember he loves me just me not the sex and cares so much for me that he wants to help. I can talk to him about anything, Conversation is the biggest part of any relationship. Friendship, love interest, family, if you don't have conversation that you have nothing. Just those awkward silent moments, I hate those... ! So Wednesday I am going to my first group session with other sex addicts... I am of course nervous but hopefully these will lead me down the right path! Wish me luck!
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Much luck to! I understand alot of what you write, I was mollested at the age of nine by a cousin..I turned to booze, and have many yrs of regret, but like you I got help, and now am a healthy, happy person...keep it up my friend, you are on the right track, more power to you! :)
ReplyDeleteAll the best dear, friend. Know that non of your good efforts will go in the drain. Keep working and if you break down in between you can always re-commit yourself to a cause so good. My good luck and prayers will always be with you.
ReplyDeleteFor your information, I too went through this when my girl friend ditched me for another guy. The thing is that we had a very intense sexual life and suddenly I was devoid of it. It made me go crazy. The pain of loosing her was only mental but the other was very psychical. There were nights when I feel something cringing my skin and all that. I turned to porn sites and booze. I started looking at every other women, no matter how old or young they were, as sexual objects. I fantacised having sex with almost everyone except maybe my mom and sis. It was only a few months back that I started realizing that this was very abnormal. I started rationalising things in my mind. I proposed to a very pretty looking girl in my office and trained my mind not to have any sexual fancy about her. It wasn't easy. But I finally pulled off the stunt. And now, I can walk around freely and feel complete again.
So, keep up the good work and give your best shot. At least you owe that to the man by your side who is all ready to help you out.
Sex is a part of life but it shouldn't be an addiction. Love your life not because its painful but becoz you can take forward the goodness of it to comming days. I think a crippled or handicapped man can live a better life than us..
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