First Steps Towards Recovery

Joining an SAA meeting is harder than thought to be. Most are "closed" to the public which is a real eye sore. If you want people that have a problem to join make it easier we don't want to work at our addiction until we start seeking help. I have been trying (its not easy or cost efficient) I am seeing a therapist ($75/ hour ouch) Trying to get into an SLAA meeting (those are "open" and free but they expect a donation) and reading books on sexual addiction (try reading Lust Anger Love by Maureen Canning, MA, LMFT and Don't Call it Love by Patrick Carnes, PH.D). Also if you are in a relationship like I am, talk with your partner about your sexual frustrations. If its that you need more from your partner tell them or if you need help for your addiction tell them the truth if they love you they will stay and help as mine did. If not they were not worth your time to begin with. I feel that yes I am to blame for my actions and putting myself in situation where I will end up in another mans bed. But my childhood has a lot to do with wanting to feel in charge of the situation. I feel power over my sexuality causing me to want to find person after person telling myself I can stop when I want. Now is the time I admitted to my countless mistakes and am seeking help and wanting to show my fellow addicts that help is out there! Changing your addiction will be hard and a long road as mine will be but you must first want to change to be helped.